Sunday, January 24, 2010


It's funny when things suddenly change...or had I seen this coming for a while?
I wanna go back to the person I used to be, but I'm not even sure who that is anymore. Now I'm finding myself listening to music in the backseat of cars, staring at the dark violet sky, thinking of things that seem unreal
I'm starting to see how hollow everything is...and always was. The worlds I escape to when I'm away from school, and all the people in it, feels like the real world. Like the same dull classrooms I go to everyday is a dream and this is reality...
Reality is the crisp smell in the air after the rain. The feeling of running around in the grass at night, laughing, jumping, shouting, and feeling out of breath, but full of life.
Reality is the late nights, eating Ramen and watching old movies, talking about things that we can only talk about when we're alone.
Reality is pirates and vampires, long dresses and swing dances, Oceans and skies that never end.
or is it simply a dream....that will also fade? And soon I will find myself back in the gray skies and four dull walls of a school classroom?
Thats why I'll hold on to these dreams for as long as possible....and try so hard to keep it in in my grasp...because if I let go...
I don't know what I would do...