It Feels So Good To Really Believe

In the end, all I really want...

is to know I changed a few people's lives
I think that is the most wonderful thing ever.

xoxo

Snowy Mountains

Yesterday I took A bubblebath. Usually when I take a bubblebath, the bubbles aren't fluffy and fill up the whole tub...but they did yesterday.
They looked like snowy white mountains, and I pretended to be a giant,
and they all belonged to me.
I took My ipod and speakers and hooked it up next to the tub, and listened to Laura Marling, Regina Spektor, Bright Eyes, and Train.
After I drained out the tub, I took all the leftover bubbles and gathered them in my hands and blew them all over the place, so the whole bathtub and curtains were full of small bits of bubbles.
Then I rinsed off in some cold water, and I tried to wash away every worry and bad thought, since I've had too many of those lately. The cold water felt amazing on my skin as I sang along to Hey Soul Sister. And for a little while, I felt very happy.
And very very alive.

You know when you think so much, and you just wish that you could turn off all your thoughts? When monsters chase you and you try to outrun them, but they're always right behind you.
I start to wonder all the time, When did things become complicated?
I think I'm going to take more bubblebaths, because no monsters can ever find me when I'm hiding beneath snowy mountains.

How do you hide from monsters?

xoxo

100

Wow...post number 100...
pretty amazing...

xoxo

It's been a while

I really want to start posting again.
And i will try my best :)

Oh, and by the way, I'm really sick of those comments that lead to porn websites. I don't have any comments besides those ones now. cut it out.
I'm not stupid enough to click on them.

xoxo

Remembering Sunday

It's strange how sad things can be so pretty at the same time...
bittersweet.

xoxo

Magic

I wanna hold magic in my hands.

I wanna fly away from all this and forget everyone and everything...and live in a world where I can breathe nothing but the clear, blue, sky.

Have you ever felt that? That feeling of longing...for all the things in your head to be as real as everything in front of you this very second....

Sometimes, I can feel it inside me, almost in my stomach, or in my heart.

I can sit there and daydream for hours while listening to beautiful music....but when I'm forced to come back to reality, It's one of the most terrible feelings.

Who says I have to stay in this reality? Who says that I can't keep my head in the clouds?

Who says I have to grow up? Why can't I stay this way forever?

Just believing in magic so much that I can almost touch it with my eager fingertips...

Yes. I think that's who I am, and always will be....and once I let go of the magic that I'm holding on so tightly to...that's when my life will start to end.

xoxo

I Feel Different

I think I'm starting to remember how it feels

to need something so much.

It's scary

and It's bittersweet

and it hurts...just a bit

But, it makes you feel so....

alive.

xoxo