Even in somewhat, boring towns like mine, I can always find a special somewhere. When I went to do the Secret Fairy Wishes, I took my brother along, and on the way home, we decided to take a walk around the neighborhood. I found a lovely surprise! I had never been to the back of our neighborhood, and it waas very, very nice. Especially the mailboxes (You can see my brother standing beside them <3333) I was wearing my lolita dress, and I was twirling in it as I walked, and tried to pretend that I was Alice, and just found Wonderland. I'm on a ski trip now, and I cannot wait to get back so I can take a long walk all by myself. Sometimes, I just love to be alone.
Lately I've been missing people too much. I just moved you see, and although my neighborhood is nice-as you just saw- I really have this beautiful yet slightly painful longing in my heart. Sometimes I look at the moon and think "I wonder if they ever think of me and miss me when they look at the moon...I hope they do." Sometimes I have moments where something funny happens, and I think of them and I wish that they were there. At times like this it's like my hearts is singing a sad yet beautiful song, a ballad. My Heart's Ballad. They say, that when you have dreams about someone that you know, it means that they were thinking of you. Or that their desire to be with you left their body and flew into your dreams. This makes me feel so good. Sometimes, I talk aloud to them, and hope that they hear me, or I simply whisper their name, and hope that they can hear me. Maybe in their dreams, I'm standing beneath the moon, in my lolita dress. And I'm smiling kindly, and saying "I miss you". I hope so. Whenever I have dreams about them, I know that they remember me.
Maybe, after writing all of this, they're having dreams of me right now <333
xoxo