Lolita Polyvore

If only, I had alot of money and lived in Tokyo...

I would dress like this forever

xoxo

Dreams

Even in somewhat, boring towns like mine, I can always find a special somewhere. When I went to do the Secret Fairy Wishes, I took my brother along, and on the way home, we decided to take a walk around the neighborhood. I found a lovely surprise! I had never been to the back of our neighborhood, and it waas very, very nice. Especially the mailboxes (You can see my brother standing beside them <3333) I was wearing my lolita dress, and I was twirling in it as I walked, and tried to pretend that I was Alice, and just found Wonderland. I'm on a ski trip now, and I cannot wait to get back so I can take a long walk all by myself. Sometimes, I just love to be alone.

Lately I've been missing people too much. I just moved you see, and although my neighborhood is nice-as you just saw- I really have this beautiful yet slightly painful longing in my heart. Sometimes I look at the moon and think "I wonder if they ever think of me and miss me when they look at the moon...I hope they do." Sometimes I have moments where something funny happens, and I think of them and I wish that they were there. At times like this it's like my hearts is singing a sad yet beautiful song, a ballad. My Heart's Ballad. They say, that when you have dreams about someone that you know, it means that they were thinking of you. Or that their desire to be with you left their body and flew into your dreams. This makes me feel so good. Sometimes, I talk aloud to them, and hope that they hear me, or I simply whisper their name, and hope that they can hear me. Maybe in their dreams, I'm standing beneath the moon, in my lolita dress. And I'm smiling kindly, and saying "I miss you". I hope so. Whenever I have dreams about them, I know that they remember me.

Maybe, after writing all of this, they're having dreams of me right now <333

xoxo

Roller Coaster

I'm sad that Christmas is over. I'll miss it untill next year. But theres still the New Year. A new beginning!

Thank you sooooo much Sprinkle for the amazing Best Of Blogs Award. I'm really very happy!! You are really awesome!

I'm sending you many hugs and kisses xoxoxo <33333

Lately, I've been having thoughts. Like I'm understanding things better somehow. The type of thoughts that I've heard in books and movies, and I never quite understood. But now that I'm having them myself, I'm like "is this waht it feels like?" And yes, it is. I'm beginning to understand how life works, how people that I love, and miss terribly, are connected to me by the memories that we share, even thought they are inside our hearts, that they are stronger than any material object. How everything happens for a reason. And that God never gives you more than you can handle, which means that when I feel sad, or life is getting hard, I know that the strength is stored inside me. Like a beautiful gift-wrapped box, and I just carefully need to unwrap it and let all the strength out. That even in the darkest darkness, there is always light, even a bit. And if not, I need to use the light that's in my heart instead.

I used to hear that life was like a roller coaster ride. And now i get it. It's fast, and scary, and surprising, but so much fun. And recently I've found that I'm really not afraid of roller coasters anymore. These thoughts...is this growning up? I dont want to grow up. But this is not growing up, its Understanding, it's being human, it's life. Maybe, physically I'll grow up, but never emotionally. I'll always be the messy, curly-haired little girl. And I'll never, ever, ever, ever, want to clean up my room. (unless it gets a bit out of hand and I start getting frustrated because i cannot find a thing)

One of my random little rants. hehe, with all these type of thoughts, I feel like I need to break free. I'm a bit of a drama queen i must admit. haha. I want to run away from my small town, and go to London, or Tokyo. I would have crazy, random , and dangerous adventures. Then maybe I'd fall in love. And then him and I would have even more adventures together. And we'd have a wedding in a magical place. And I would become a famous director, like Tim Burton. And in my huge house, there would be gothic-antique furniture and an old library. And a garden only I knew of. And a giant walk-in closet with nothing but Lolita clothes. Ahhhh.....sooooo much I've dreamed of....

Well, I talk too much. So I'll let all of you lovelies go right now. Take care. And please don't let my thoughts get to you. Whenever I hear this stuff, then I think too much. haha, I never stop thinking!

xoxo

Christmas

MerryMerryMerry Christmas!! Santa was very kind to me this year...

The Katyusya Headdress that came with my Lolita Dress (I look a bit like a gothic version Of Alice in Wonderland <3)

The complete stories and poems of Edgar Allan Poe

The Twilight soundtrack (I was just listening to it...Rob Pattinsons song is amazing, I think I'm in love <3)>



The Harajuku Lovers fragrance (The one on the right smells like Coconuts, and the one on the left smells fruity)

A little Hello Kitty lip gloss set <3>

I many recieved other things as well. I'm so thankful. I must've been a very good girl this year <3

I hope all of you had a lovely Christmas as well!!

xoxo

ps-I still have my dress on...I love it so much, it's like my own personal fairytail.

This is my little musical watch. It plays We Wish You A Merry Christmas and it's very beautiful. I try to let it sing me to sleep but I'm unable to keep still. I'm far too reckless and energetic, but I think that somehow thats a good thing, It makes a person more interesting. I'm always ready for adventure or whatever life brings.

The Watch opens up and has a little train in the snow that goes round and round. Sometimes I wish that I could ride away on that train, to Santa's workshop, or to a Secret Somewhere. I have a daydream about a train station in the sky...

I have posted the rules from the Secret Fairy Wishes..but I'm about to do it....hopefully today. Yesterday and unexpected event ocurred. But I cannot wait.

Almost Christmas!!! I must check the mail...my dress should be here. Please? I can't wait to wear it! I'll be just like a doll...and I'll curl my hair, and drink tea.

Merry Christmas!

xoxo

winter Day

Today is truly a winter day.

The sun did not shine when I woke up, and it is not shining now. But I'm hoping that smiles will bring sunlight today. It is raining outside and has been for a while and the street looks like a black river with little houses floating on it. I woke up far too early and have homework to do...I should do it soon because it worries me. Like knots in my stomach. I'm hoping that they'll untie themselves when I finish...

oh, how I want A dress like this one!

It would be nice to wear on a winter day like this with a warm coat. Someday I'll get one...maybe just like it!