Breathing In a Summer Night

What is this? This strange feeling....of longing, and desire....?

A longing for soft summer nights, running and laughing so hard that your tummy feels sore...but you love it anyway.

A desire for a crtain someone, a certain smile that can send acid dripping through your stomach. Almost as if you feel sick....but in a good way.

What is this sudden urge to sit on a swing set all night, staring at the stars, and listening to music that touches the very deepest, and fragile part of your heart?

When everything starts to change...and evryone knows that soon it won't be this way anymore....that we all have to take seperate paths....why does it always feel like this?

Like, if you could go back and change anything...it would be the thing seperating us right now.

But deep down you know that it has to happen anyway.

but here and now, I'll make a promise:

Even if we're far away

Even if we don't laugh together, or see one another

Even if we turn into different people, like we all do as life goes on...

I promise, that I won't forget you

And a part of me knows that we will meet again

But for now....lets not think about that. Lets keep on laughing, and lets keep on being children,

where the sky belongs to us, and so does every star.

xoxo

Yes, I have Returned...

I'M BACK! yes, here I am darlings!

My absence was due to the horrible nightmare known as School...and many other things :p but now that I've settled in and its not really so nightmarish anymore, I'm glad to be back :D

So, with a new school year, comes a new schedule...and mine is very interesting indeed!

1. Language Arts
2. Advanced Drama
3. Math
4. Science
5. French
6. Once Apon A Time*
7. Social Staudies
8. Tech Theater II

*once apon a time is a class ALL about fairytales, and different authors and versions of fairytales :) Amazing, right?

No cute guys this year...but some very interesting people. 8th frade is scary...so many labels, so much peer preessure, so many people doing things that make me look way too innocent. It's scary for sure.

But I suppose this is what 8th grade is all about...hook-ups, break-ups, friends, pressure, tears...like one of those cheesy teen drama shows! But without those things we wouldn't have the smiles afterwards...so I'm glad :)

Also, for the new school year...I've been adding stuff to my room...lots of stuff! My bulliten board is so full now! Remember when I first posted about it? It barely had anything on it! Now, I can't find any room to put new pictures on :D Oh, and now my walls have loads of new posters on them!





and now since I must leave you...I have some homework to do...I'll leave you with a little gift:

NeverShoutNever is an unsigned artist who is simply AMAZING! His music has a very sweet feel to it and he's all about living free and being happy :) This video can turn any bad day into the best day ever! Because...you're only as tall as your heart will let you be, and only as small as the world will make you seem...make everyday count darlings!!!

so, tell me how this new school year has been going for you!

(by the way, be sure to keep up with me on twitter!! http://twitter.com/Lenore_lolita)

xoxo

Leaning now into the breeze

Watching life pass by from the window of your car...

Have you ever wondered if you could suddenly run out of time?

It all goes by too fast

I really wish I couldn't miss a second

I think knowing this...only makes life more special

xoxo

Bittersweet Summer

Everyone is posting delightful posts on summer and how it's lemonade and ice cream will bring smiles.

Well, I'll be different, and speak of how I'll miss everything I've been through this year, is that all right?

So much has happened, so many new faces and places I never want to forget...so many worlds inside of my heart I never knew existed, some sunny and beautiful, some dark and tragic.

All the poeple, who have somehow made a difference in my life by just being in it...even if they played a seemingly small part.

I'll miss Him...my precious him...who makes tiny butterflies flutter in my stomach...who makes me feel happy and sad all at once.

But I guess, for the next two months or so...I can always enjoy lemonade and ice cream.

xoxo

My Favorite Things

These are a few of my favorite things.

The little bits that make me happy in between the big parts of life.

The simple, pretty things.

Do you have those things? That at any moment, you just feel you must take a picture, because they look sooo pretty and they make you feel happy? Thos timy things...

Last night...I danced, and danced forever. I spent a good amount of time with Him. We kept on "running into" eachother. At one point, he put his arm around me for a photo. I got this feeling, like everything was just perfect. Like in the movies...when the princess finds the prince. If only He knew...

At one point, the song Shake It came on. And we danced right by eachother and sang along. It was Magical.

Im just so happy. I think it was all a dream...
xoxo

Dreams

Even in somewhat, boring towns like mine, I can always find a special somewhere. When I went to do the Secret Fairy Wishes, I took my brother along, and on the way home, we decided to take a walk around the neighborhood. I found a lovely surprise! I had never been to the back of our neighborhood, and it waas very, very nice. Especially the mailboxes (You can see my brother standing beside them <3333) I was wearing my lolita dress, and I was twirling in it as I walked, and tried to pretend that I was Alice, and just found Wonderland. I'm on a ski trip now, and I cannot wait to get back so I can take a long walk all by myself. Sometimes, I just love to be alone.

Lately I've been missing people too much. I just moved you see, and although my neighborhood is nice-as you just saw- I really have this beautiful yet slightly painful longing in my heart. Sometimes I look at the moon and think "I wonder if they ever think of me and miss me when they look at the moon...I hope they do." Sometimes I have moments where something funny happens, and I think of them and I wish that they were there. At times like this it's like my hearts is singing a sad yet beautiful song, a ballad. My Heart's Ballad. They say, that when you have dreams about someone that you know, it means that they were thinking of you. Or that their desire to be with you left their body and flew into your dreams. This makes me feel so good. Sometimes, I talk aloud to them, and hope that they hear me, or I simply whisper their name, and hope that they can hear me. Maybe in their dreams, I'm standing beneath the moon, in my lolita dress. And I'm smiling kindly, and saying "I miss you". I hope so. Whenever I have dreams about them, I know that they remember me.

Maybe, after writing all of this, they're having dreams of me right now <333

xoxo

Roller Coaster

I'm sad that Christmas is over. I'll miss it untill next year. But theres still the New Year. A new beginning!

Thank you sooooo much Sprinkle for the amazing Best Of Blogs Award. I'm really very happy!! You are really awesome!

I'm sending you many hugs and kisses xoxoxo <33333

Lately, I've been having thoughts. Like I'm understanding things better somehow. The type of thoughts that I've heard in books and movies, and I never quite understood. But now that I'm having them myself, I'm like "is this waht it feels like?" And yes, it is. I'm beginning to understand how life works, how people that I love, and miss terribly, are connected to me by the memories that we share, even thought they are inside our hearts, that they are stronger than any material object. How everything happens for a reason. And that God never gives you more than you can handle, which means that when I feel sad, or life is getting hard, I know that the strength is stored inside me. Like a beautiful gift-wrapped box, and I just carefully need to unwrap it and let all the strength out. That even in the darkest darkness, there is always light, even a bit. And if not, I need to use the light that's in my heart instead.

I used to hear that life was like a roller coaster ride. And now i get it. It's fast, and scary, and surprising, but so much fun. And recently I've found that I'm really not afraid of roller coasters anymore. These thoughts...is this growning up? I dont want to grow up. But this is not growing up, its Understanding, it's being human, it's life. Maybe, physically I'll grow up, but never emotionally. I'll always be the messy, curly-haired little girl. And I'll never, ever, ever, ever, want to clean up my room. (unless it gets a bit out of hand and I start getting frustrated because i cannot find a thing)

One of my random little rants. hehe, with all these type of thoughts, I feel like I need to break free. I'm a bit of a drama queen i must admit. haha. I want to run away from my small town, and go to London, or Tokyo. I would have crazy, random , and dangerous adventures. Then maybe I'd fall in love. And then him and I would have even more adventures together. And we'd have a wedding in a magical place. And I would become a famous director, like Tim Burton. And in my huge house, there would be gothic-antique furniture and an old library. And a garden only I knew of. And a giant walk-in closet with nothing but Lolita clothes. Ahhhh.....sooooo much I've dreamed of....

Well, I talk too much. So I'll let all of you lovelies go right now. Take care. And please don't let my thoughts get to you. Whenever I hear this stuff, then I think too much. haha, I never stop thinking!

xoxo