Breathing In a Summer Night

What is this? This strange feeling....of longing, and desire....?

A longing for soft summer nights, running and laughing so hard that your tummy feels sore...but you love it anyway.

A desire for a crtain someone, a certain smile that can send acid dripping through your stomach. Almost as if you feel sick....but in a good way.

What is this sudden urge to sit on a swing set all night, staring at the stars, and listening to music that touches the very deepest, and fragile part of your heart?

When everything starts to change...and evryone knows that soon it won't be this way anymore....that we all have to take seperate paths....why does it always feel like this?

Like, if you could go back and change anything...it would be the thing seperating us right now.

But deep down you know that it has to happen anyway.

but here and now, I'll make a promise:

Even if we're far away

Even if we don't laugh together, or see one another

Even if we turn into different people, like we all do as life goes on...

I promise, that I won't forget you

And a part of me knows that we will meet again

But for now....lets not think about that. Lets keep on laughing, and lets keep on being children,

where the sky belongs to us, and so does every star.

xoxo

Christmas lights and Chilly nights

Hello! Sorry I've been gone forever...long story. Had bad luck with my laptop :(

But I'm back...and I'm here to say: MERYY CHRISTMAS!!

For some reason I am very very excited for christmas this year because I have a feeling it will be quite magical :)

This year for Christmas I would like...

~Peter Pan on DVD (ahh, the good Old days...)

~Whisper Of the Heart (and a few other Hayao Miyazaki movies)

~The Art Of Tim Burton (GAH must own this book!!)

~And few CDs (not quite sure which ones...my mind just went blank haha)

~and last but not least: For my family and friends to all SMILE! :)

Something about clouds of smoke escaping my mouth out in the cold, and the tiny christmas fairy lights all around...something about it is just so magical, and can bring a certain warmth to my heart like nothing else

Oh, speaking of a warmth to my heart...Thank you for all the lovely comments on my Blog Birthday post. It made me feel so special, like I made e difference in the world...even just a tiny one...I love you all very very much! *virtual hugs!!*

So, my lovely blogger darlings, Have a lovely Christmas season, and be sure to tell me what YOU want from Santa! :)

xoxo

Bittersweet Summer

Everyone is posting delightful posts on summer and how it's lemonade and ice cream will bring smiles.

Well, I'll be different, and speak of how I'll miss everything I've been through this year, is that all right?

So much has happened, so many new faces and places I never want to forget...so many worlds inside of my heart I never knew existed, some sunny and beautiful, some dark and tragic.

All the poeple, who have somehow made a difference in my life by just being in it...even if they played a seemingly small part.

I'll miss Him...my precious him...who makes tiny butterflies flutter in my stomach...who makes me feel happy and sad all at once.

But I guess, for the next two months or so...I can always enjoy lemonade and ice cream.

xoxo

Roller Coaster

I'm sad that Christmas is over. I'll miss it untill next year. But theres still the New Year. A new beginning!

Thank you sooooo much Sprinkle for the amazing Best Of Blogs Award. I'm really very happy!! You are really awesome!

I'm sending you many hugs and kisses xoxoxo <33333

Lately, I've been having thoughts. Like I'm understanding things better somehow. The type of thoughts that I've heard in books and movies, and I never quite understood. But now that I'm having them myself, I'm like "is this waht it feels like?" And yes, it is. I'm beginning to understand how life works, how people that I love, and miss terribly, are connected to me by the memories that we share, even thought they are inside our hearts, that they are stronger than any material object. How everything happens for a reason. And that God never gives you more than you can handle, which means that when I feel sad, or life is getting hard, I know that the strength is stored inside me. Like a beautiful gift-wrapped box, and I just carefully need to unwrap it and let all the strength out. That even in the darkest darkness, there is always light, even a bit. And if not, I need to use the light that's in my heart instead.

I used to hear that life was like a roller coaster ride. And now i get it. It's fast, and scary, and surprising, but so much fun. And recently I've found that I'm really not afraid of roller coasters anymore. These thoughts...is this growning up? I dont want to grow up. But this is not growing up, its Understanding, it's being human, it's life. Maybe, physically I'll grow up, but never emotionally. I'll always be the messy, curly-haired little girl. And I'll never, ever, ever, ever, want to clean up my room. (unless it gets a bit out of hand and I start getting frustrated because i cannot find a thing)

One of my random little rants. hehe, with all these type of thoughts, I feel like I need to break free. I'm a bit of a drama queen i must admit. haha. I want to run away from my small town, and go to London, or Tokyo. I would have crazy, random , and dangerous adventures. Then maybe I'd fall in love. And then him and I would have even more adventures together. And we'd have a wedding in a magical place. And I would become a famous director, like Tim Burton. And in my huge house, there would be gothic-antique furniture and an old library. And a garden only I knew of. And a giant walk-in closet with nothing but Lolita clothes. Ahhhh.....sooooo much I've dreamed of....

Well, I talk too much. So I'll let all of you lovelies go right now. Take care. And please don't let my thoughts get to you. Whenever I hear this stuff, then I think too much. haha, I never stop thinking!

xoxo

Christmas

MerryMerryMerry Christmas!! Santa was very kind to me this year...

The Katyusya Headdress that came with my Lolita Dress (I look a bit like a gothic version Of Alice in Wonderland <3)

The complete stories and poems of Edgar Allan Poe

The Twilight soundtrack (I was just listening to it...Rob Pattinsons song is amazing, I think I'm in love <3)>



The Harajuku Lovers fragrance (The one on the right smells like Coconuts, and the one on the left smells fruity)

A little Hello Kitty lip gloss set <3>

I many recieved other things as well. I'm so thankful. I must've been a very good girl this year <3

I hope all of you had a lovely Christmas as well!!

xoxo

ps-I still have my dress on...I love it so much, it's like my own personal fairytail.