Sun Breaks The Sky

I have these thoughts, all the time. And, I'm afraid, that if I do not write them down. They will be forgotten.



I was watching a movie, about these two girls, who became room-mates, then became best friends. I am at a time in my life, in which, I want
to be free. I want to escape this suburb and run away to a huge city. I want to wake up at dawn, in my small aprtment, and see the sun rise and break the sky and city in half. I am planning on moving when I am about 18, when I go to Film College. I will most probably go to New York, or Boston. And then, move on to London, or Tokyo!! ((I wish...))



So after watching this movie, I thought, "Wouldn't it be so awesome if my best friend and I moved in together when I get to New York. We could both get jobs and split the rent" it sounded amazing, untill I realized, I can't be pinned down somewhere. i love all my friends and family, but unless I am alone, then I can't go anywhere I wanna go, and whenever I wanna go. What if I have a room-mate, but after about 6 months, i decide that I hate the house and new York and I wanna go to Chicago?! What would my room-mate do? If I do have a room-mate, we'll both have to anticipate us moving apart maybe right after college.



Thats just who I am. I'm hard to deal with. And, I'm the type who needs to explore, who doesnt mind living in a cheap apartment in New york, as long as i have the city lights at night.



Who ever I fall in love with, or marry, will ahve to love me enough to put up with this. They'll have to put up with hearing "Lets move to London instead!!" or Tokyo, or Cairo, or...even Austrailia!



I discovered, that i am a rebel who just wants to run wild and free. Thats why, not alot of people will want to be my room-mate. And not alot of people will want to spend the rest of their lives with me after getting to know me a bit. I always thought, that I'd fall passionately in love, like all the movies, then move to a cute little house and have 2 maybe 3 kids. But I now know that theres so much more to me than that. my life, isn't gonna turn out like how most little girls anticipate. but I'll wait. I'll wait for someone who doesn't mind having a wild little girl forever.



I will move to a city where the sun breaks the sky. I will go to Film College. I will Have an awesome room-mate ((My Best Friend *bacon and eggs*)) even, if only for a few years. And I will find someone who will put up with me.



I love figuring so many things out about myself...



xoxo